Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Anger: My Rebirth

There comes a time in everyone's life where they get Angry. And I'm not talking about the soft kind of anger, I'm talking Devilish Anger. The kind where things get said that people really mean, where the truth comes out. That kind of Anger. Well, I've had my share of moments like those. For instance, My sister. She makes my blood boil and my skin shake. She can be so manipulative with the things she says and can cause you to give an reaction. I don't know what it is about her, but she is just evil.

We had an argument the other day and it was vital. We said some words that we meant and none of us will say sorry for. I don't want it to seem like I am proud, but I really don't feel that I need to say sorry. I don't want to say sorry because I felt that is what she deserved. It is time that I start expressing myself because I don't usually. I usually keep it bundled in until one day, I explode, but it is time to break old habits. It is time for me to say what I want to say.

I have learned that I live my life, not others. I must learn that It is okay to feel the way I feel. I must not always put others feelings before mine, because then, I wouldn't be living for me. I know now that it is okay to feel things and say what I mean. Whether it comes from pure honest or basic instinct. I can express what I feel. I am a human, I am suppose to feel mad, or sad, or angry. I have that basic right, and I have let others take that from me for so long that it is now hard for me to get it back. But now is the time that I try. I have to try and live for me, not for my mom, or for my sister, For Me. And with living for me, that means thinking for me and feeling for me. It is time that I come to experience and live life for the better.

So with this, I will take me and my anger and say what I want to say. Even if that means hurting someone's feelings. I am not perfect, and neither are they, it is time that I let them know that they aren't.


Eddie said...

I know what you mean. I am happy that you finally expressing yourself the way you want to.

Rejjia Camphor said...

Thank You!